Your Father's Love Letters
Imagine you have discovered a packet of your father's love
letters... it might be easier to imagine love letters written by your
mother, but, no - these are your father's love letters. Need some
inspiration? Try Yusef
Komunyakaa's poem "My
Father's Love Letters." Now, write a poem about those
His exit time had long since come and gone
Gramma said his number had been drawn
Sitting Indian-style upon her floor
I watched her slide open each file and drawer
Hed kept an hidden folder on each of us
Which one fibbed, whom he could trust
Which one preferred canned Mountain Dew
Who had snitched his last bottle of Yahoo
I uncrossed by legs, like a bird I perched
Peering over her shoulder, watching her search
I pretended not to notice the tears that strayed
When she found his calendar of remembered days
Hed penciled in the addresses for possible return
Her abrupt stillness caused me sudden concern
A barely detectable scent around us loomed
The attic air filled with anothers stale perfume
I had no chance to hide my apparent surprise
She saw it in my face, the width of my eyes
Softly patting my hand, she acquiesced with her head
Her posture shrugged then grew stoic instead
What stayed in my memory, frozen in time
Was the strength of a lineage, Id later find mine.
Lonely without you
and impatient to return.
So impatient, my love,
I bite my tongue
like my dear mother
always strongly recommended
when I had to go.
A long road runs be-
tween us -- hot and dry and old.
Ill make my quota, sure --
maybe more -- but small hotels
(except this one
place just north of Houston with
a full fried-chicken dinner with green
beans and hot rolls and butter
for 85 cents with apple pie
and a slice of cheese for
only 10 cents more)
make horrible homes.
And I smoke too much and
I drink too much and
I think too much (of you)
and I miss you too much and when
I return, sweetheart, have
patience with my love.
I try patience
over and over. It
works on the road,
in the car, but at
moonrise or dawn
I bleed, cant speak
My father hid his love letters in the ceiling.
Not a man of words, a man who found it hard to sit
and easier to be working:
the patio built stone by stone,
a barbecue pit of bricks salvaged from a factory razed in 1960,
the '49 Mercury that aged as he restored it in the garage-
his attempt to hold time in place
his first new car, four years from war, with his first good
and a two year old daughter.
A draftsman who planned on paper with lines, angles, subtle shadings,
cross-hatching to make a two-point perspective seem real.
And in the home they bought when I was born,
he hid his love letters in the refinished oak floor,
the staircase balustrades he stripped and smoothed,
peach trees he planted, pipes he replaced.
He hid them so well that it took me all these years
to find them.
The Letter My Father Will Never Write
In the letter my father will never write,
he tells my mother he loves her. Nothing more.
I love you, in small, cramped script.
His hand hurts, gripping the pen so tightly
to keep from going on and on,
so used to qualifying,
giving parameters that explain-
of course, in spite of, because-
Stripped to the bone,
this new syntactical arrangement
catches them both off guard.
She turns the page over, looking for more.
After almost 50 years,
she has come to expect equivocation.
In dance class, before they were married,
they stumbled together
until they mastered the fox trot,
until each could anticipate with certainty
where the next step would fall,
when to glide and when to turn.
They practiced until it was so smooth
that all evidence of hard work was erased.